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MWF @ 8am I'm going to get my ass handed to me!! I'm already feeling really good about this. Paul Truman is my hero and if you don't like that go buy a vibrator and fuck yourself.

Let's sell it all and Pay bills!!

Just trying to get this out to Everyone in Albuquerque so please Xpost any and everywhere!!

Saturday at 7:00 am-5:00 pm - Sunday at 7:00 am- 5:00 pm

The Mad House
3325 Alvarado Dr. NE
Albuquerque, NM

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My mom, sister myself and possibly other are having a yard sale. Come by and buy our crap so we can pay our bills as we are all out of work right now. If you have something you'd like to donate please stop by and drop it off. We will have everything any anything you could want. Including: Gas Stove, Twin Rolling bed, CLOTHES, a CAR Everything.

Is anybody here??

I'm not lost just on facebook. I like the chat aspect. come find me I'm Sami.Cakes

It's been a bit

I'm not sure anyone cares or even reads this anymore. I spend most of my time on facebook. I'm going through a lot of crap right now and haven't been out other than for gaming in a while. I can't find my Id and that really pisses me off. I need to get my Drivers license back but haven't had time to go to the DMV. I don't know. My life is chaos and I wish I had people to hang out with and do stuff with. Most days I don't even want to get dressed. Soon I'll be going to Colorado and hopefully things won't suck as much.

Jul. 23rd, 2009

I have been diagnosed with PTSD and (probably) bipolar. They put me on Prozac and it hyped me up I got really manic and then I crashed!! THey changed my meds so next week I start Lemictal. Drugs are fun MMKay? UGH!! My ID is still missing and has been for several weeks. (Since 8 of July) I can't seem to locate it. It's pissing me off.

An Update On The Buxton's

Devlin was admitted to the hospital over night last week. His White Blood Cell Count was very low. The next day they redid the blood test and he was back to normal. He apparently had a virus known as the "Coxsackie Virus". He fought it off. He is back to being Devlin.

I made my 4th of July dress for the Ren Faire in Colorado. I will also wear this dress for SCA events. I need to sew the hem of the skirt but other than that it's done.

I guess that's it. Nothing has changed as far as knowing when I'm going to move to Colorado. I am having trouble with my counseling right now. Apparently no none in the office can read and right a schedule. It really irritates me.


Devlin has had a fever of 101+ for going on 4days now. We took him to URGENT CARE Tuesday. Everytime he wakes up he is BURNING-UP and so I give him Ibuprofen and put him back to bed. He just lays there drinks his cup and cries. That's not my baby. My baby is Happy. He won't even give kisses and cries when we get him dressed/ Those are his two favorite things like EVER!! Well He woke up this morning in the same fashion as the last few days so Tim called into work and is taking him to the ER! I want my baby back. I want to walk in his room and say "Morning Sunshine how is my handsome boy?" and have him climb up and reach for me and smile saying "MAMAMAMAMA!" He hasn't done that in days. i hate when the kids are sick. It makes me crazy!!

Becoming clean

I am moving. To Colorado Springs. I have a place to live and a job. I'm hoping to go to Culinary School too. It'll be a few weeks at least. I have to finish dealing with counseling and stuff. We have to buy a second car since Tim and the kids will remain here. From my friends here I ask that you support me in this. I ask that you understand that I must better myself and in turn better the lives of my children. It's going to be hard and Tim is going to need help. If you have the opportunity and where-with-all to watch the kids, please do. They are really good and we'd appreciate the help. This is a HUGE step for me and my family. We need all the support we can get.
I was sent this email. From what was a friend of mine that didn't even ask what the hell.

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I can't believe that this is what my life has come to. I left that Party to go get my mom who was too drunk to drive and her boyfriend was arrested and her car was towed and she was left without shoes in the Ladera Shopping Center Parking Lot.

Maybe it's true. If your friends can just stop being your friends with out asking your side of a story or clarifying what happened Maybe they weren't your friend to begin with. I'm sad to loose a friend but maybe I'm better off.

This is Fucked up

My grandmother isn't alot of peoples favorite person. I figure she's 90 so she can be bitter and evil. Well she's never been really healthy. She's always smoked. A few years ago she was diagnosed with diabetes and as a result she had some of her toes and fingers amputated. in the last year she needed a caregiver so they moved her to Carlsbad to live near my Aunt Debbie and Uncle Mark. They got her an apartment and a caregiver who would check on her Monday-Friday for 4 hours a day.

My cousin graduated from High School Thursday so my Dad's Girlfriend Julie and her exhusband, my uncle James drove to Carlsbad to attend my cousins graduation. They picked up my grandma and spent the day with her. She said that my Aunt and Uncle weren't visiting her and that she felt like no one loved her. Julie told her that she'd come down and help her move back to Farmington so that she'd have more family around next weekend. Kisses good-bye. Julie called my grandma when they got back to Farmington to let her know they were home ok. This was the last time anyone heard from her. The caregiver found my grandmother in her bed gone. No one knows when she died other than sometime between Friday night and this mornng when the caregiver got there.

I don't understand how my family thinks it's ok to treat people like shit. My Uncle Doug drove to my Dad's house and told him and my Uncle James that "It was an inconvenience for him to drive 20 minutes to tell them that their Mother has passed." and that They should have answered the phone. How fucked up is that. Oh yeah No service for her and my already rich Uncle Doug gets EVERYTHING!! She has 16 grandkids and 6 children. Only Doug gets everything. I'm really hurt right now. I shouldn't have expected anything different My sisters and I were the greatest mistakes of her life. I'm just sad that she died thinking that no one loved her because even with as mean as she was to me growing up I still loved her.